myra

Last night we celebrate my mom and dad’s wedding anniversary at the hospital. Its quite an experience, a sign of relief, happiness and at the same time, a little sadness. We all get there and a little celebration is made for them. Im happy because she is fighting and still they are together. Sad because at the end of the month my birthday is coming up you know the sense of longing, what you are use to is not happening and well dont worry i’ll get over it. At least she is well which is much more important than looking back all the agonizing days that i get through just thinking your mom is not doing good and afraid of loosing someone who is precious to you. Yeah right im childish but getting mature on the hard way is not easy either. Just keep goin on with my life time is precious why waste isn’t it. Hope everybody have a great day.

I gain 10 lbs and im not happy about it. I ahvent weigh for 3 weeks thinking im in control. I bought DVD’s for my work out and i hope i get my butt working on this. I can’t control myself from eating, when i get depress i just eat and eat. I have long way to go to get there and its frustrating when you get rid that weight and get it back….again. My exercise is my struggle, i end up watching tv and eating again with bunch of junk. Well i feel down but i think i can still hang to it. I get rid 10 lbs before why not now right. Im just getting nuts coz all that i work at is back again and scaring me out of my turf. I just hope i get over this.

When i arrieved at the hospital to visit my mom , i saw my aunt. Im shock coz she loose a lot of weight well i get frustrated and down coz as i look at my self, geeh my weight upside down. I get a little shy well my bulge i get insecure but i cant help it. I just look to other people and make myself busy.

Im not so happy with my figure. I gain weight of course, what do you expect. Im still struggling but im trying. Im down a bit but i keep on climbing as much as i can. I dont wanna be down all the time and feel sorry. I get a lot of inspiring things that i have read here and hopefully i could catch up and im so tired to myself in the mirror that im a loser. its so tiring and i feel wasted. I want change and like what other said better try than not trying at all. Wish me luck.