myramyra

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myra — Thu, 21 May 2009 11:52:53 +0000

Hello, to other people who know and who dont know me. Im depress, its been a long time since i got here for one reason, to loose weight. I guess im not successful. I feel so down and sobber. My mom died last dec. even before christmas. It was so painful, coz she did not survive. She died home in my arms, i couldn’t take it. Sorry guys, im just lonely. I never thought i’ll be here sharing this. You know, i’ll be celebrating my birthday this May. Mom she died at young age of 60. Sometimes i questions things, it is quite sort of out of hand, It is sad, i dont know if i’ll able to get through this pain. Gosh before im sharing things of weight loss, my weight plus depression it sounds lunatic. Sometimes i do want to end things so i can forget, i love her very, very much. I wish she was here, but she is happy with him. I just want to say I LOVE YOU MOM.

What a hectic sched.

myra — Wed, 18 Jun 2008 03:08:22 +0000

Im so tired and had no time for exercise. Its hard coz i hardly had an enough sleep for the past week. You know i dont burn enough calories coz most of the time i do sedentary jobs, sitting on the computer all day long because all is rush and geeh a deadline. It gives me a headache.

Im getting old

myra — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 10:56:29 +0000

A recent event happen, yes im getting old heheeh im 28 years old and my life is in a havoc wreck but still fixing things up. Everything goes smoothly but the hard part is the cake, dessert and the fabulous pasta ekkk but im happy and how time fly im a big girl but kid at heart. Another year i just hope that i could find someone who will love and cherish me and my weight good luck to me, my family and my mom. Though have’nt have time for lovelife actually im not thinking right now its too much of a chaos lol. I just wish everthing will be alright and God by my side. Thanks for the support that im getting here. I really cherish all the good words even bad that makes me forget for a while that im a sensitive person lol. Yeah right still struggling and staying strong, hope everyone is doing great and never forget that everything happens for a reason we just dont know.

Mom and Dad’s 30th wedding anniversary

myra — Thu, 29 May 2008 11:41:06 +0000

Last night we celebrate my mom and dad’s wedding anniversary at the hospital. Its quite an experience, a sign of relief, happiness and at the same time, a little sadness. We all get there and a little celebration is made for them. Im happy because she is fighting and still they are together. Sad because at the end of the month my birthday is coming up you know the sense of longing, what you are use to is not happening and well dont worry i’ll get over it. At least she is well which is much more important than looking back all the agonizing days that i get through just thinking your mom is not doing good and afraid of loosing someone who is precious to you. Yeah right im childish but getting mature on the hard way is not easy either. Just keep goin on with my life time is precious why waste isn’t it. Hope everybody have a great day.

Oh my gosh!!!

myra — Thu, 22 May 2008 07:16:44 +0000

I gain 10 lbs and im not happy about it. I ahvent weigh for 3 weeks thinking im in control. I bought DVD’s for my work out and i hope i get my butt working on this. I can’t control myself from eating, when i get depress i just eat and eat. I have long way to go to get there and its frustrating when you get rid that weight and get it back….again. My exercise is my struggle, i end up watching tv and eating again with bunch of junk. Well i feel down but i think i can still hang to it. I get rid 10 lbs before why not now right. Im just getting nuts coz all that i work at is back again and scaring me out of my turf. I just hope i get over this.

i get jealous

myra — Sat, 10 May 2008 17:26:59 +0000

When i arrieved at the hospital to visit my mom , i saw my aunt. Im shock coz she loose a lot of weight well i get frustrated and down coz as i look at my self, geeh my weight upside down. I get a little shy well my bulge i get insecure but i cant help it. I just look to other people and make myself busy.

My Body

myra — Wed, 07 May 2008 13:01:34 +0000

Im not so happy with my figure. I gain weight of course, what do you expect. Im still struggling but im trying. Im down a bit but i keep on climbing as much as i can. I dont wanna be down all the time and feel sorry. I get a lot of inspiring things that i have read here and hopefully i could catch up and im so tired to myself in the mirror that im a loser. its so tiring and i feel wasted. I want change and like what other said better try than not trying at all. Wish me luck.

healing

myra — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 04:59:05 +0000

For today my mom just have an operation tracheostomy. Wish she will be fine.

another day

myra — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 05:48:52 +0000

Well today is different, its my sister’s birthday. too bad my mom is still in ICU, still sad though were trying to be cool about it. Well thinking about its a headache that dont go away. We need to be strong and support her all the way i just hope that she will get well. As for my weight im still struggling to loose those pounds. Its hard coz im depress and all along my friend ehem is food. Its strange but i think my scapegoat is always food. I just get through it be able to fit on my clothes. I hate it when im fat, i feel huge and sad at the same time the way i look, my problem oh boy what a headache.

Confuse

myra — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 05:37:50 +0000

I’m lost but anyway, i can’t think of anything that could identify what problem i have. Its so frustrating, anger at the same time. I’m depress, but i cant help it, its just that i lost everything. Its mind boogling i think juggled too much of everything, my work, my family , my life. I couldn’t think of myself its always them. I dont know if i can still handle things it might be out of hand.